J.M.J.
J.M.J.
THEN AND NOW
YOU KNEW ME, LORD, EACH TIME I FELL,
EACH TIME I WALKED THE PATH TO HELL,
EACH TIME I FOUND AN ALIBI
THAT HELPED EACH ACT TO JUSTIFY.
YOU KNEW EACH TIME I DISOBEYED
EACH LAW THAT YOU FOR ME HATH MADE,
EACH TIME I MADE LAWS OF MY OWN
BECAUSE YOUR LAWS I HAD OUTGROWN.
YOU KNEW WHEN I COULD NOT RESIST
TEMPTATIONS THAT OFTEN PERSIST.
YOU KNEW, DEAR LORD, ALL I SUPPRESSED,
EACH SIN THAT I HAD NOT CONFESSED.
YOU KNEW, DEAR LORD, MY EVERY THOUGHT
AND EVERY PLEASURE THAT I SOUGHT.
YOU KNEW THE LACK OF MY REMORSE
BY HOW I CHARTED MY OWN COURSE.
YOU KNEW WHEN I WAS IN DESPAIR
MIMICKING WORDS RESEMBLING PRAYER
AND EACH TIME THAT I WENT ASTRAY
LEAVING MY LIFE IN DISARRAY.
YOU KNEW HOW I YOUR GIFTS ABUSED
AND HOW YOUR LOVE I HAD REFUSED.
YOU LOVED ME EVEN THOUGH YOU KNEW
THAT I HAD DONE NOTHING FOR YOU.
YOU KNEW ME, LORD, BETTER THAN I
AND NEVER YOUR LOVE DID DENY.
YOU KNEW ME THEN AS YOU KNOW NOW,
AND YET THIS LIFE YOU STILL ALLOW.
FORGIVE ME, LORD, FOR MY ABUSE
AND ALL YOUR LOVE I DID REFUSE.
FORGIVE ME, LORD FOR NOW I SEE
THERE IS NO LIFE, LORD, WITHOUT THEE.
“THY WILL BE DONE”
4-13-1997